Reflections on Grieving 2020

I won’t be going to any Christmas parties this year.

It hit me while boxing up my crop tops and hauling out my sweaters for winter. I hung cozy knits and long sleeves on the same rod as the fancy blazers I haven’t worn since March when I came across my tacky Christmas sweater.

It is truly ugly — embossed with a giant fuzzy Santa head and a few other 3D features, and made out of some…